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I believe everything happens for a reason. Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who
you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you.
It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or
colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.
Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion.
Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who
they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been
achieved otherwise. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder
what they would have or could have had. No one waits forever. Life is about trusting our feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating
the memories and learning from the past. Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness.
Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Continue to learn. Appreciate your friends. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.
So, cherish your yesterdays and dream your tomorrows, but most importantly, don't forget to live your today's. I'm selfish, impatient
and a little insecure. I make mistakes, and when I am out of control at times, it's hard to handle. I'm only me. That is all I can be. No more, no less,
dont second guess. I love, I live, I laugh, I cry. I've wished sometimes that I could die. Some days I'm funny, others I'm not, sometimes I'm in overdrive and I can't stop.
You may not like me, but that's okay because this is me and how I'll stay. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as well
don't deserve me at my best. I turn a year older on every 11th of June. Don't try to judge me if you don't know me well.


"Pamper me like a princess and I'll promise to be your good girl."

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Friday, November 30, 2012

@ 1:17 AM
You mess with my friend, you mess with me.

Hey there, I'm back here to update my blog after months of not updating it. Didn't feel like updating it, though I've so much things within me. So many different thoughts and feelings I've been through, so much experiences every single different day, be it good or bad. Recently, things weren't really stable and going smooth for me. I don't know if the problem lies with me or is it because of the other party. But I always think that the problem always lies with me, it's me, myself who have caused so much trouble and obstacles for myself to go through. As I believe that everything you do in life, happens for a reason and ofcourse you got to bear the consquences after that. I know, I know life has its ups and downs, but why am I always suffering and going through all the bad times, I don't see the good in it. Even till now, I still feel really horrible and terrible, living miserably everyday. My close friends have been telling me that its how I see things in life, we gotta be positive. But the thing is no matter how hard I tried to be positive, I still can't. I get paranoid easily, sensitive easily, gets jealous easily. Sometimes I feel I care for the people around me, but people just don't appreciate it. So I care less, I just care for those who cares for me, will do. And now when I care less, people said I've changed, everything I do is just simply different. Everytime I tried to be happy but it just doesn't seemed to be better, everything still falls back to where it was from. I haven't been really happy for 2 years already, and I kept wondering why? Why others can be so happy, why I can't? What have I done wrong to deserve all this? Maybe problem lies with me. I really don't know. I still fear so many things in life, be it death, be it life, so many things........ Enduring so much things on hand, be it the good or the bad. Yes, I want to be happy and move on in life with my daily routines and not being sad/frustrated everyday. I want to be happy again.

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Photos with my dear girl on 28th November:





 
 




 
 
 
 
 
  















 

 

Good night for now.