Heavy-hearted, tortured, insecure
I'm left in the dark alone, with so many questions left unanswered. I need an answer to all these questions. It's hard to breathe now, no one just understands how I felt. How I wish everything wasn't happening this way, I didn't expected all this to happened. :( It's disappointing. I'm really sick and tired of all this, crying over and over again, trying over and over again, yet all I get back was shit. I'm tormented, I'm crushed, I don't know what to do. I'm confused, I'm lost, I totally got no clue. I don't know how to move on, I don't know how to pick myself up. I hate the pain that I'm going through, the stress that is piling up day by day. I chose to bottled up everything that I'm feeling now. I've lost trust in almost everyone and I've lost my confidence for everything. I cried every night to sleep, but why? Just because I kept thinking of what I'm facing now, going through, and thinking what will be next? It's hard to breathe. :( I just need you, is it so difficult?
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AUTOBIOGRAPHY
you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you.
It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or
colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.
Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion.
Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who
they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been
achieved otherwise. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder
what they would have or could have had. No one waits forever. Life is about trusting our feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating
the memories and learning from the past. Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness.
Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Continue to learn. Appreciate your friends. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.
So, cherish your yesterdays and dream your tomorrows, but most importantly, don't forget to live your today's. I'm selfish, impatient
and a little insecure. I make mistakes, and when I am out of control at times, it's hard to handle. I'm only me. That is all I can be. No more, no less,
dont second guess. I love, I live, I laugh, I cry. I've wished sometimes that I could die. Some days I'm funny, others I'm not, sometimes I'm in overdrive and I can't stop.
You may not like me, but that's okay because this is me and how I'll stay. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as well
don't deserve me at my best. I turn a year older on every 11th of June. Don't try to judge me if you don't know me well.
"Pamper me like a princess and I'll promise to be your good girl."
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